Yesterday, (Dec. 2), Lady Gaga opened up about a dark part of her past on The Howard Stern Show.

“I went through some horrific things,” Gaga admitted when the topic of rape came up. “I’m able to laugh now because I’ve gone through a lot of mental, physical and emotional therapy.”

According to Gaga, when she was a teenager, a producer roughly 20 years older than her took advantage of her.

“I wrote a song called ‘Swine’; the song is about rape,” Gaga said about the ARTPOP track. “The song is about demoralization. The song is about rage and fury and passion, and I had a lot of pain that I wanted to release.”

Stern dug deeper and Gaga expanded on the topic. “I wasn’t even willing to admit that anything had even happened,” she said, as it wasn’t until years later that she came to terms with what happened. “I saw him one time in a store, and I was paralyzed by fear.”

Stern asked, “Were you afraid to go to your father because you thought your father would kill him?” to which Gaga says she cannot reply.

In the end, she found solace in the fact that she was helped through therapy, maturation and more positive relationships, like her collaborations with Tony Bennett: “He wants nothing from me but my talent and my friendship… I think we should all be each other’s Tony Bennetts.”

Listen to interview here.