17-year-old Willow Smith detailed her experiences with self-mutilation and being in dark places during an episode of her mother Jada Pinkett-Smith’s Facebook Watch show, Red Table Talk.

The musician explained that during the “Whip My Hair” era of her career, she experienced feelings of pressure and self-doubt about herself as an artist and a person during her meteoric rise.

“It was after that whole ‘Whip My Hair’ thing, and I had just stopped doing singing lessons and I was kind of just in this gray area of, ‘Who am I? Do I have a purpose? Is there anything I can do besides this?’” she told her mother and her grandmother during the May 14 episode of the show, titled “Surviving Loss.”

The The 1st singer explained that pressures as a budding artist juggling with promotions and album completion began to take its toll on her.

“I was listening to a lot of dark music and it was just so crazy and I was just plunged into this black hole and I was, like, cutting myself and doing crazy things,” she said. When her shocked mother asked her about where she was cutting herself, she showed her the scars on her wrists.

“There’s still a little there,” she said of her scars. Only one person, a friend, knew of her secret.

However, Willow assured that her self-harming days are behind her. “I honestly felt like I was experiencing so much emotional pain…one night, I was like ‘this is actually psychotic,’ and after that I just stopped. It’s been like five years.”

“There’s more awareness now than when we were both coming up,” said a teary-eyed Jada to her mother about self-harm and abuse.

Surviving Loss

This week around the Red Table, Jada Pinkett Smith reveals the impact of the tragic death of her longtime best friend, Tupac Shakur. While Willow Smith shares a painful secret for the first time. Follow Red Table Talk for episodes and updates, only on Facebook Watch.

Posted by Red Table Talk on Monday, May 14, 2018