Comedian turned actress, Tiffany Haddish, who always finds a way to have people laughing or smiling is opening up about a dark time in her life.

The 38-year-old actress appears on the latest cover of Glamour where she recalled being allegedly raped by a police cadet when she was only 17. Haddish said the incident led to her seeking help and shaped the way she approached men in her life.

“That whole experience put me in such a messed-up place for a long time, and I ended up going to counseling,” she said.

“I notice that men are afraid of women that are aggressive. So to protect myself I become semi-aggressive,” she explained. “You hear about, ‘Tiffany always hitting on somebody,’ but that’s to keep them from hitting on me.”

The experience also led her to want to make a change and help victims of sexual assault. However, Haddish wants to take her time to plan exactly how she’s going to help sexual assault victims so she can actually make an impact in their lives and change their lives for the better.

“Me just yelling out people’s names with no thought behind it is pointless. I need a plan,” Haddish said. “I could be a voice, but what’s a voice going to do—just keep talking? Or is there action behind it?”