One of R. Kelly’s accusers, Asante McGee has broken down her former relationship with the disgraced Chicago singer in a feature for NBC News.

According to McGee, she didn’t see any initial warning signs, and she instead believed that R. Kelly was trying to protect her. “When he told me not to speak to people about coming to see him, because they might try to attack me, I believed him,” she wrote. From there she alleged that Kelly told her story about an uber driver putting a gun to a unnamed girl’s head after she said she was on her way to visit R. Kelly. “I believed it then but, thinking about it now, I don’t anymore,” she explained.

McGee wrote that she first started to notice things weren’t as they seemed when he flew her out to Chicago in 2016 only to have her sit in a van for eight hours. “I should have just left him then, but I was just so in love with him,” she added.

Even more disturbing, McGee said that Kelly would ask her to “talk like a little girl,” which set off another red flag for her. “He always wanted me to talk like a little girl. He would tell me what to say, I would repeat it, and he would keep telling me, ‘No. Do it different, do it a little softer,’ until I got to the voice that he wanted,” she wrote. “I thought it was odd, but then I thought that maybe it was just a role play for him.”