Lauren London released her first public statement about the death of her longtime love, Nipsey Hussle. “I am completely lost. I’ve lost my best friend,” the grieving actress wrote on Instagram Tuesday (April 2).

“My sanctuary. My protector. My soul…I’m lost without you. We are lost without you babe. I have no words.”

The 33-year-old rapper was shot and killed outside of his Marathon Clothing store in Los Angeles, on March 31. The suspected shooter, 29-year-old Eric Holder, was arrested in Bellflower, California on Tuesday (April 2), hours after the LAPD tweeted a photo of him asking for the public’s help to track him down.

According to The Blast, Nipsey’s body was picked up from the Los Angeles County coroners office and transported to Angelus Funeral Home in Los Angeles Tuesday. The mortuary became the first black-owned incorporated business in California in 1925, as noted by the website.